Life made boring

Waking up to see that there's nothing to be seen, first time in my life I have been feeling so down. Slowing down to see what can I do, but nothing will surface. Why it has to be my life? Can't life be much simple?

So many questions to ask, hope to find a place so safe not a single tear/fear. Stress piling up, these stress contributed by two sources, school and my parents. How I wished that this is just a nightmare.

Why I suddenly mentioned such thing, I have no idea too. Just feeling damn low, just finding a place to jot my feelings down before I bottled up too long and started bursting out. Maybe I envied those that have a parents that would loosen their grip a bit. Hey! I'm already 15, going to 16, can't they stop being a control freak. There's still many things installed for me when they wake up from the sleep. The passage, I only rememorizes two paragraph and that took me an hour.

Feeling sicked of it...